I am so not gonna mention how long I havent even OPENED this browser this time..
Anyhoo, I'm just gonna randomly start typing so try not to get confused ok? ;p
Been quite busy recently, with work, gym, jobs, whatnot.. But no-one really gets it. I stay up all night doing profiles, and in the end you get the "Oh, I can't do this job", or "Pay so low la". Well my pay is even lower ok, so please la. I don't care what the price is, it's still more than you get now anyway!! Will you guys please climb out of your own asses n come back to the real world? It's not gonna be handed to you on a plate you know! To do all of this I have to stop myself from doing other things, and just cz I dont tell you, doesnt mean it doesnt happen! N I work from 10 - 6pm, then gym from 6 - 9pm. When I get home, just leave me be, is that too much to ask? Sometimes I get home n I'm STILL working on these promo job details or whatever. Yea, so, maybe it doesnt bring in that much money, but everyone has to start somewhere. It's a climb to the top, every career starts this way! N can I have a few mins peace watchin telly befre you start nagging this, nagging that? ...
Sorry. Just needed to rant. It's hard when you cant voice these things out face to face with someone. It's not just the lack of people I can do that with, but it's just not who I am. I find it hard to write all this down, knowing you guys are gonna read it, let alone actually saying it to people. I try to force myself to let some of this out, as I know it's good for me, but... You think it's easy telling someone your deepest dreams, or pain? Let alone try talking to people who cant seem to be bothered anyway, as most people are in this day & age? Everyone's too busy for anybody else. I admit, I have these times too, when I cant be bothered, but most of the time, I do listen to others' problems or joy. I may not have the right advice, I may not know what to say even, but I think letting it out does wonders.
Emceed for another event with Bandwidth Streetpress. The organizer said it was good, but I personally dont even rate it as ok. I know 1 particular woman (wink) is gonna lecture me for saying this stuff, especially in public, but nevermind la.. Maybe I need a lecture.. Hihii.. I still think my best emcee job was the 2009 Hell or Heaven Cosplay party.. Tht came so easily altho it was technically my first time. Why cant I think of anything to say during these more important events? N why dont the words come out properly?? Come to think of it, why am I not right at ALL for any of the things I want to do? I know where my talent is, n I like doing those things too, but there are other things I want to do more and.. ARGH!! ...
Ok, i'm gonna stop complaining now.. ... Good news: I am legal!! Hahahahaha~ Lol.. Ok, well I can call myself Malaysian now.. ;p Got my citizenship cert, and my NRIC num!! Just gotta get the card now, then can get passport, then watch out world!! Haha.. But I AM going to KL next weekend, and am so excited!! =D Am planning to get my driver's license soon too, so Ray, Dad, Jovanny etcetc can STOP NAGGING!! =p
Busy week this week too.. Met Pumpkin, who just came back from S'pore, last nite; Meeting Vina for our way overdue yamcha session; Wendy's back on Sat, and should be having Korean wif my ex-classmates; N hopefully meeting Lok on Sunday!! Was s'posed to meet Loges last Sunday, but she did a vanishing act.. Hmm.. LOGES!! Where are you?? You've got me all confused la babe!!
Oh, new friends! Met a girl called Stephanie (few weeks ago, but just that night realised we click =)). Hopefully we'll be able to meet up soon, I could use more friends, and no! Anyone outside of Sabah, you dont count!! Hahahahaha~ (Hear that Amal, Jov, Sha?? ;p) N I've gotta catch up with Queenie, as we dont see each other enough.. Sigh..
I've gotta manage my time more.. There's loadsa things I need, and want, to do.. But never seem to find the time!! Yes, I procrastinate way too much, and I'm trying to get the lazy bug out of my system!! Oliver, you need to do this way more than I do as well! So imagine how bad you are!! Keke~
"Some have the talent, some have the drive. What do you do when both things are in different family members??" - This is something that popped into my mind. I know, I know. The one with talent but no drive will not succeed, while the one with drive but no talent will. But really? It's not that simple. Sometimes I just find it so sad. Why couldnt the one with drive get a little of the one one with talent's talent? And vice versa? If only the world was so easy eh?