If you don't feel like hearing me randomly rant and basically confuse you, you don't have to read on..
I'm just in such a dilemma right now!! I want to move to KL to work on my modeling career, but at the same time, I really do not want to leave my boyfriend!! He cant move with me because, well, it would be selfish of me to uproot him when he already has a successful career here in KK.. The plan is basically for me to also continue studying while I'm in KL, and I have come to the conclusion that I will do a one year foundation course, then go on to do a degree in mass communication. I cant go straight to degree as I dont have enough credits, and I cant do a diploma because my dad doesnt believe in them! He actually wants me to do A Levels, but I refuse as I think it will be a waste of time and money, as I will most definately fail them; I'm not going through all the commerce/accounting/math classes again!! BUT, at first I was thinking of a diploma, which is 2 and a half years, or straight to degree, which is 3 years. Bf and I agreed on this. But now I have to add foundation, which means I'll have to be there for FOUR years!! How will we stand being seperated for at least 4 years? And.. What if I succeed in my dream and dont want to come back? What then? It's just so confusing!!
I have a good life right now here, but I cant do nothing for the rest of my life - it's already boring me!! And I know if I dont take this opportunity given to me I'll regret it for the rest of my life, and a relationship of hate will not go down in the long run will it?! Sigh.. So what should I do? Go over and not study (might regret that, and bf insists I do study anyway)? Go over and do a diploma (resulting in unhappy dad, and a waste of another couple of years)? Or what? Argh~!! I hate this!!!